I really want to write more in this blog. I am not sure why i don't make the time for it. I think I am holding myself back because of WHAT I want to write about. Weight loss? Boring. My parents' divorce? What if someone we know reads it. Too personal! My guilty obsession with certain reality shows? Hmm, maybe. I don't want to just write about my life as a mom. That's a 24/7 job but I'm a little more than that, ya know? I'm ALWAYS in full-on mommy mode. I want to write about the other things in my life that matter to me or interest me. I need to work on this...

All of the brouhaha over C Jane's restaurant review has stirred up some issues I have. I was raised very conservatively. No drinking, no smoking, no cursing, no dancing, no lots of things. My father, who is less conservative than my mother allowed me to go to prom. Yes, I had to fight for the right to go to my prom. So, I grew up and left the church because for me, that was no way to live. I researched the Bible, the history of Christianity, other denominations. Intellectually, I recognize that one does not, in fact, have to be "puritanical" to serve Christ. But whether it's years of having it pounded into me or what, I don't know, I can't imagine going to church today. I imagine everyone judging me. And then I read a post like C Jane's and I see the gasps of horror and the accusations and the finger pointing. And it just confirms for me that the judgment is indeed out there. There are those who would say to me to work out my own salvation and not worry about the judgmental people. My question then becomes, OK then, why do I need church to do that? It's a circular argument that never seems to end.

Quirks

Not once, but twice today I have seen the Keep Calm poster matted in such a way that it cuts off the top of the crown. In a magazine and on a design blog. Fine, whatever, but I could NOT leave mine that way, it would have bugged the crud out of me. So I find it so fascinating that these people, who clearly have decent enough taste and style to be featured in such a manner, can live with it. But then I can be a bit messy and untidy which would probably drive those same people nuts. I guess we all have our quirks, non?

Buying Handmade

Ideally I'd love to be a normal size with plenty of disposable income and buy everything handmade - my clothes, jewelry, handbags. But for now I do what I can. So I just ordered this fabulous bag from Etsy seller retrofied.



And the coolest thing is that it's reversible! So, when I need something a little tamer I can just turn it inside out and voila!



It's gorgeous, I can't wait for it to get here!

Phew

My walk yesterday seemed a little easier but it still took a lot out of me. And that's fine except that it means I am not getting a lot done. I did go grocery shopping too yesterday but then I was beat. So today I think I am going to mow the lawn and do some heavy housework. And then we'll see how I feel. Maybe I'll go ahead with the walk, maybe just an exercise DVD here at home. But I need to make this place tidy and I gotta do some laundry too. I know the walks eventually won't sap every ounce of my energy but until that time comes I'm going to have to take "rest" days here and there to get things done.


I always envy people who enjoy cleaning and yard work. I wish that I did. I enjoy the results but not enough to motivate me. When others write so cheerfully about fresh linens and scrubbing the floor and sparkling dishes it sounds so lovely. But actually scrubbing floors really isn't lovely. I had a mom come over the other day to see if her son was here and take him home for dinner and I was mortified. My kids trash my living room so thoroughly and so quickly. I apologized but felt like such a freak. Fortunately, her little fella was back over the next day so she must not have found it too frightful.

Enough blogging, time to put on my cleaning uniform and get to work!

Keep Calm

Well, I'm trying to keep calm. I took the piece of paper that came in my frame to Michael's. The measurements are printed right there on it, I traced the mat opening on the paper, though those dimensions were printed on the front as well. I told the guy the dimensions of my poster, I explained why the Ikea mat didn't work. I went to pick up my mat and inexplicably I had a mat with the same hole size as the original and the outer dimensions were too small for the frame. I had my poster with me this time, he measured it. I gave him the dimensions of the frame since they were apparently wrong on the original order. I went to pick up my mat again and inexplicably now had a mat the right size for the frame but the opening was the EXACT dimensions of my poster. *sigh* I got a new employee for this third order, hopefully SHE will get it right. I'm carrying on . . .

Monday Fitness Check-In

No weigh-in because alas, my scale has gone bonkers. It's like a weigh-in on The Biggest Loser: 151 199 162 188 173 only it never seems to settle in for the dramatic final number. So, the question is, do I attempt to continue on this journey scale-less or spring for a new one? I suppose actually, I could check on the Wii Fit now couldn't I? Forgot about that, will do later when my legs can move again. I re-watched the Biggest Loser finale last night and seeing those people at the beginning, much bigger than myself doing those insane workouts, I thought I really should make more of an effort. I am a stay-home mom and I do have the entire day to devote to working out if I want to. (I don't, LOL) So I started my morning after dropping off the kids with yoga, followed by a 60 minute walk. It was nice, it's a beautiful day. But wow, by the time I got back home I was ready to hug my mailbox I was so happy to see it! Excuse me now while I go apologize to my feet.